My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever. Psalm 73:26

Sometimes I feel like a hypocrite.

Fraud.

Someone who writes well and doesn’t listen to what she writes.

Well, I’m only human.

Not perfect.  Not even close.

Life is real.

Emotions are real.

Expectations are real.

We are forced every moment to make a decision.

Are we going to choose life or choose death?

Are we going to worry and obsess or are we going to throw things back to God.

I sometimes choose to worry and obsess.

I know, time to get real.

It’s so natural though, isn’t it?

When I find myself falling back into worry, when my mind walks down that path, my head hurts and my emotions are in the toilet.

I am convinced life is over – not really, but you get the idea.

Then my mind returns to the things I have written.

God’s plan for my life.

Does He have my back or doesn’t He?

Do I truly believe He has my best interest at heart, or do I not?

It matters.

A whole lot, it does.

It’s the difference between light and darkness.

Life and death.

When you choose to truly believe God has it under control, your body chooses life.

Peace enters your precious mind and your body is at rest.

 When you decide to obsess and keep control, your body chooses death.

Your body tenses, hopelessness takes over, and you are full of angst.

We’re only human.

I’m only human, and while my mind knows the truth, I sometimes walk down the path of death.

I pay for it with my lack of peace.

But here’s the good news:  once I purpose to throw things back to God and let Him take care of it, His peace always returns.

Every time.

It’s ok to make mistakes.

Yep, it is.

Just own them and turn back.

Completely.

Run back into the arms of God.

Because He’s smiling at you, waiting to keep you safe and sound under His feathers.

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